
Oi,
I am writing during our "siesta" (although there is no official name for it here), which happens everyday between 1:00 and 3:00, after the most delicious lunches prepared by our chef, Inacia. I am still getting used to having a chef and a housekeeper; apparently it is perfectly normal to leave your dishes on the table and have your clothes washed for you here. It's actually offensive to do these things yourself when you've hired workers... and so I've (reluctantly?) agreed to stop cooking and cleaning for the remainder of my time here so as to not disturb the family culture by my foreign ways...
I've included some photos of new friends (below) and my first Brazilian Rodizio which was the best meal I have ever had in my life! It consisted entirely of meat roasted and served to you off of a skewer and the service basically doesn't stop until your stomach is distended and you manage to convince the waiters that you've had enough by harshly saying "NAO, Estou satisfeita." about a hundred times.

Maria, my new sister, has incredible friends who all seem to work in the social service/public health field here in Fortaleza. They have all offered to take me on site visits to their jobs and have filled my spare time with "muito divertirse"(??) activities: kite surfing (although I'm told this is extremely dangerous because of the massive waves), regular surfing, shopping, road trips, etc. etc. This weekend we are going kayaking then to the mountains to a coffee farm which I'm told is beautiful and will also provide a chance to talk with local farmers about some of the challenges they are having. Brazilian coffee is really good, and so worth never buying from Starbucks again.
My actual "work" started yesterday with what was supposed to be a 90 minute presentation for our RELUS group, consisting of professors and masters students from all of the three universities in Fortaleza, about 60 people in total. RELUS is a research Group based out of the University of Fortaleza (UNIFOR) that combines Educational Psychology, Work Psychology and Clinical Psychology programs and services. In Brazil social workers do not practice clinical work and community psychologists tend to function how community social workers would in Canada. RELUS is heavily influenced by person-centered and spiritual approaches in their work and I am happy to get a chance to see the mix of individual and community approaches. I spend about 9 hours a week with the RELUS group and an additional 5 hours on community site visits, in favelas, neighbouring towns and parts of the city where I get to go with a translator and see how outreach works in Fortaleza. My other project will be with the state government in public health but will likely not start until the municipal election is over in two weeks.
Anyway, I was told to prepare a presentation on "community programming, policy and organizations in Canada", and had about a week to prepare. My supervisor, professor Cavalcante, translated for me while I managed to fill up the time.
I should mention that people here can speak some english, just like I am catching on to some portuguese, meaning that we can say, Hello, Good Day, I don't speak your language and Tchau! I spend most of the day standing mute and trying to pick up words that I vaguely recognize. Maria has been awesome and has taught me all the swear words and dirty slang I need, just in case I get into a street fight and need to express myself. I'm starting to get over feeling like an idiot and repeating "Meu desculpe" 60 times a day, and am starting to get the important verbs when spoken in first or second person, but still... I struggle with trying to prove to everyone that I actually have a brain, despite my inability to converse.

Anyway my presentation, in my opinion, was incredibly boring, I was bored giving it, and to make it even worse I lost my pen drive in the taxi on the way to the conference hall and had to return home, so I was a half hour late. During the Q and A there were no questions, and no feedback. I interpreted this as being a very bad sign and spent the rest of the night awake thinking about whether I had unintentionally offended the entire group by discussing Canadian social policy, health care and community planning. I hope I didn't inadvertently destroy all confidence in my abilities to contribute to my team, I'm really hoping to get invited out to all their social events and have some good conversations...once I get past "Hi, how are you?"
So with only three hours of sleep I started my second "work day" at 7:30am. I was to go to Plantao, which is the name for drop-in clinic; today was therapy plantao which I was assured by everyone that I would be shocked. I was seated in an observation room and watched through a one-way mirror while a client diagnosed with schizophrenia received a "therapeutic session". Therapy started off with a lot of active listening from the psychologist, who I've become close friends with because he speaks fluent english. It was difficult to follow the storyline but at some point the therapist began to rub the mans arm and then there was a lot of hugging and crying from the patient. The session finished with some mandela work and the standard kisses on the cheeks.
I couldn't say I was shocked by the experience but there is definitely a different approach to touching and being close to people in Brazil. I guess it makes sense that this would happen in therapy as well. I was more shocked to find out that my collegues thought I would be surprised by the types of people coming for therapy, as though we don't have problems in Canada. I tried to assure them that, in fact, we have many problems, not only with they situations people face but also the way they are treated when they try to access care and services. And this sparked some discussion about my presentation from the night before. I found out that, in fact, some people did find the talk interesting but not for the reasons I thought they might. I spoke about funding sources for NGOs and community organizations and the role these organizations play in applying pressure on our government to create policies and programs that meet the needs of the community. This seems to be an impossibility in Fortaleza, partly because of the volatile history between the state and it's citizens. The ability to create programs without state policy in place dictating what these programs should be was described to my as a "dream". I'm starting to see how democracy must look like in Canada through the eyes of the south and how much freedom we really do have. Although Fortaleza is considered a fairly safe city I still can't go anywhere alone, which I am starting to find strange and I miss the ability to walk to the corner store and back. Stepping outside the gate requires a chaperone, especially because of my blue eyes and sunburned skin.
I am aware of this and yet here I am in a beautiful home, with full-service and chauffeurs available to take me wherever I want to go. I've also been thinking about how ironic it must seem to people that I came to Fortaleza to stay in this house, yet a want to go "visit" the impoverished areas. This thought makes me uncomfortable...
I've managed to catch a bug that made me vomit for most of yesterday and I still don't feel 100 percent yet...
Spent some time in the backyard and officially met the chameleon, today he was green-blue... which I think would describe how I was feeling too.